I have been agonizing over this decision for several weeks now. Even before the wedding, I had thoughts about, "What will I do?"
But now I realize what I have to do. I have to stop.
For all of you who have e-mailed me and have not received answers... I apologize. But I just can't keep up. I get sooo many e-mails. And unfortunately, it pains me to say: I can't accept your orders. I can't answer all of your questions. It's just too much for me to handle.
I would love to be able to help all of you. Really, I would. But I have a full-time job. A house that I've noticed is often a huge disaster. Things that I want to do for myself that I have put off. And you know what? I want to relax.
It's a shame, because if I ever wanted to start my own business, now is the time to do it. I often think of how nice it would be to work from home, spend my days painting and being creative.
But the fact of the matter is that I am not brave enough to quit a steady job and start doing this stuff full time, and I'm not strong enough to do it all on top of another full-time job.
I want to cook more. I need to clean more. I want to have hobbies. I want to live my life.
I already have a long list of orders I have accepted from people, and I will fulfill those orders because it's the right thing to do. If I'm being completely honest, I am seriously lacking the motivation to get even those ones done. Just taking care of them is going to keep me busy for quite a while. And the truth is that it's daunting. It's daunting to look at my long list, and it has been killing me to watch it grow. So I have to put a stop to it... it can't grow any larger.
As of right now, I am no longer accepting orders. I am SO sorry.
I will try to catch up on the e-mails that are sitting in my inbox, because you all deserve some kind of response.
I will certainly post about this again if something changes. But looking forward, I can only see my life getting busier. In September, aerobics classes will start up again during the week. Football begins. Friends are having babies. We have stuff going on most of the weekends. My workload at my job will pick up again.
I hope you all can understand.